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I've flitted to another blog..My fourth one but officially the first using Wordpress.

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I am saying goodbye here..

Examining My Future

"Sometimes I gt so caught up in the excitement, and then for an instance realize I might be leaving.

My future looks so uncertain now. I don't know what to expect, what to hope for, and what to do to avoid disappointment."

Excerpts from The Diary.

Everything's clear now. I got the answer I wanted, or maybe I was just waiting for the answer to drop down from heaven, literally. Because right till now I don't have a clue what I really want. So I am just going the direction I am pointed and turned to.

I am wondering. Still.

Life Like That

Ever done something that is so totally out of place? Something you only sees in movies but never ever dream of doing?

I did it.

I puked in a drain beside the road. Although at a closed alley, still some people was unfortunate enough to have to see it.

I was definitely sick that day.

This things should only happen once. Otherwise I might just get boycotted.Enough said.

Positivity

Today deserves a chance. And I am trying to be positive. It's a brand new morning, almost eleven. But still considered morning. I haven't been as productive as I wanted..yea, wasted my holidays away.

But anyway, I bought a book. Started to read it. The lovely bones--by Alice Sebold. And it's really good. I know I am gonna love it. Next up, my allowance will go to my next target--The time traveler's wife. I going to start collecting books now. Then by the time I am 30 years of age, I'll have a impressive collection. Then maybe I'll start my own library..Ah, blissful dreams.

Sis came back on Sunday. Our family is complete now. And she's officially the tallest among us three sisters. I knew the day would come.

I am stalling. Waiting. Waking up and doing nothing. Positivity sucks.

I Needed This

Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent. ~Eleanor Roosevelt

It's me who is my enemy
Me who beats me up
Me who makes the monsters
Me who strips my confidence.
~Paula Cole, "Me," This Fire

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ~Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles"

I Want

I want to try my hands at photography. Pictures speaks a thousand words, and portrays beauty one could not imagine if not for a brilliant person with an eye for unseen images.

I want to reaffirm my one-time passion for flute. This time I'll make sure I can blow the perfect pitch.

I want to learn new languages--the art of communications, which can take me to places, overcome cultural difference and gain inspirations.

I want to write and publish short stories and produce my own songs. I want to inspire.

Shoe

I am going to start blogging about my new interest--fashion. I think I must be running out of topics to blog. Anyway, I am having a deadening headache now. Fashion is a hard subject for a total beginner like me. But I am persisting even if it kills me.

Let's start with shoes.

A shoe is an item of footwear evolved at first to protect the humanfoot and later, additionally, as an item of decoration in itself.

As defined by Wikipedia.

I will start with athletic shoes which half the population of the world would at least have a pair. The emphasis of these particular type of shoes tends to be more on function than style. However, nowadays, functions and style goes hand in hand, with the many stylish and cool sneakers around. And people like me who is not into sports just get them for show. Now, athletic shoes are then divided into many other categories, depending on the kind of sport one plays, from running shoes to ski boots to wrestling shoes. I did my research, so there.

The most popular athletic shoes brands are all out there. Adidas, Rip Curl, Nike, Converse, Fila and one hundred and twenty-three thousand others. There are also lots of cheap and stylish sport shoes around in the market now. Sneakers are considered one of the most popular footwear for teenagers nowadays, girls and guys alike.

The versatile and timeless sneakers.

I will end my presentation here. Thank you. I have a lot yet to learn.

I am lovin' it

OK. So I didn't get any scholarship. So all the effort I spent in the application processes had been in vain.

So what?

God will make a way. I trust in His promises. Though these times are few and far in between. I am sorry for the lack of faith, God.

School

I don't really have any interesting subjects to write about. I got a problem. I can't blog in originality. Every time I face a blank template, I am at a loss. Maybe blogging is just not my thing.

Don't get me wrong. I love writing. On any blank sheet of paper, I flow all my thoughts over it, writing with a pen. The natural way. The old-fashioned way.

I am trying to write poems now. In the past, I mostly wrote song lyrics. One teacher once said that it's my way of getting my idea across to others. My form of expression. That is so true. Anyway, I find it harder to compose poems than song lyrics. I know it is almost similar, but somehow I can't get the serious tone of the poem right.

Yesterday, our MUET teacher got us all to introduce ourselves in a get-to-know-the-students session. And without thinking, I blurted out that I like writing. Well, the teacher obviously was quite pleased that she has this one of a kind student, a rare species in her class. Okay. So, I am now officially considered one of the most hardworking nerd in class. I think.

I am proud of my newfound status. Believe it or not.

The 3Ls

Live.

Laugh.

Love.

I might not have done enough of these.

Back To School

So, I started form 6.

It's baffling..after months and months of yet to decide what I wanna do, worrying my head out, I ended up in the most conventional, straightforward, and uncomplicated study pathway.

At least, it's what I think. But there's still decisions to be made. Which I hate.

So what's there to tell about school? It's the first time I'm studying in a boy's school. (think immature kids running around). The first week was orientation week. It was okay I guess. There were lots of talks, announcements, getting-to-know sessions. On Friday, we had ice-breaking sessions and played some games which had moral values. And then that Saturday we had gotong-royong. Although I would so much rather sleep in on a Saturday, but the conscientious part of me prevailed and I went. To labour in my new school. I am a teacher's ideal student. Not.

So, anyway..I am still torn between a few other options. But I'll leave it at there. No point worrying.

What I'd Been Doing Today

I am proud to present my *drum roll please* painstakingly done artwork using ScribbleToo! As below:

I spent 1 hour plus drawing with a mouse, the computer one, mind you, and another half hour uploading it.

You can thank me for my effort. Which is the reason I'm damn tired now.

Silence

In the silence of the night, I blog. Except for the sound of my finger tapping away on the keypad, quietness rules. Feeling extremely poetic and inspired now. Must be the exhilarating experience of staying up to as late as 5 o'clock in the morning.

Silence is an essential part of my life, of me. I am silent when I am dreaming, silent when I am thinking, silent when I am inspired, silent when I am touched to the core of my heart.

"Silence is the true friend that never betrays."--Confucius

“We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature - trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence... We need silence to be able to touch souls.”--Mother Theresa

“Music and silence combine strongly because music is done with silence, and silence is full of music.”--Marcel Marceau

Random

Mum is coming back today. So I am not cooking tonight,as we 'll be going out for fried noodles. And I probably won't cook much after mummy comes back.

oh well, I'll miss my own cooking.

I cooked pork porridge today! yay!And I turn childish also.

I got hooked on online cooking games! It was really childish but oh so fun..

I thought I 'll write something

Why?

Because.

I feel obligated as I am the one who had created this blog. Life has been interesting. Like it has been every other day. Sarcasm-I am only just learning about it.

Oh, and by the way, I am also learning HOW TO COOK. The thinking part is great. The doing part is you know..like usual.

Elaboration--thinking of how to cook what is a tedious process. Its require some creativity on my part and it makes me worrisome. Like I worried if I am not thinking of using the right method.

Then the actual cooking time comes and I find that its too easy..So to sum it all up, I might just be thinking to much.

But then again, too easy doesn't means everything is all right. Not when the food is either too dry or tasteless most of the time.

I will steam pork ribs with taucu today.

Youkoso

After a period of absence, I am back-blogging. So, life is normal. I kinda like it now..I am carefree, relax, bored and listless. Sitting around till I get sore butt. Other than that, this are some activities I try to do to occupy myself with :

--Blogging

--Reading other people's blog

--Learning to cook

--Helping mum clean up the kitchen every time she's done cooking

--Glue myself to the tv

--Lie on sofa staring at wall

--Lie on bed staring at ceiling

--Design and sew clothes

--Reading mags

--Learning japanese

Welcome to my blog again..

Foodies and Art

I made brownies today..The picture on top don't do much justice to the actual one that is edible, smells nice and look nice too..yummy.

And I wanted to do some drawing.

That's how this post came about. Plus it's time I update..