The Hippo Creak

So often i feel like banging myself against a wall
Distracting myself with the least possible worries
And listening to conversations going around
Is it around a circle or just in my head?

So often I walk straight into a wall
And come out the other side
Injured, touched but still not toughen up

I don't cry myself to sleep any longer
Just slip into blankness and worldly dreams
I don't know how to say what I'm suppose to
And just keep pretending that I don't know better

The words they said cut a deep line inside
I wondered who am I to care what they think
Whn I'd judged similarly and knowingly participated
Laugh off white lies with motives hidden inside.

People so real I see through them
Past their life that I envied greatly
While hidden behind many layers of clothes
Each duller and thicker than before.

New Moon

Watch New Moon last week. Finally got the chance to blog about it.

"The entire film seems to consists of three thought.... Don't leave me. I can't live without you. Make me a vampire.."-reviews from rottentomatoes.

Either I have bad memory, or the movie's too forgettable. It was 2 hours and 10 minutes long. Slow-paced. Especially the scenes between Bella and Edward. They talked slow too. And the only thing that Edward repeatedly says to Bella is near the line of "You are everything to me...blah" That's the only part I kinda remember. I tuned out the rest cause it all sounds the same.

"Shallow, vapid, and cheesy, proving that melancholy eternity themes can sometimes be drenched in tedium-except for ferocious twi-hards."-reviews by critic

There were some good parts though. Like when they went to the Volturi. Dakota Fanning. Werewolves fight. And Alice-my favourite vampire. I don't like pale guys. Nor do I like muscular torso.

The ending was the worst part, I guess. That's cause I didn't even know that was the ending. Marry me. The end.

Shadowy Silhouette

Watching your shadow trailing behind

I'm the one you always turn your back to,

The one waiting and standing behind

Following from afar, your other lonely shadow.

I am counting down to SPM..8 more days to go. No, I am not worried about the exam, I am more worried about what will happen after all this. The year 2008 coming to an end, and I am not looking forward to the bright and cheery future.

What's my problem? I don't have any goals, ambitions for life..Yet.
But I do have a possible list.

Plans for my future:
1. Undergraduate studies...
2. Decide course to take
3. Work a part time job
4. Go for National Service
5. Write a book
6. Open a special education centre for disabled children

This is as specific a plan I can think up..

I need divine help from above

God You made my brain. Teach me how to use it.
God You made my heart. Teach me how to love.

Originality

VERSE 1:
I grab hold a handful of hair
Pull one out and watch
what once was mine drift away

I read words from people's life
And imagine myself living it
gaining touch from their experience

CHORUS:
So original
I live to tell it
Part of the world
I'm one of them

No originality
I laugh with the crowd
And got so used to faking it

VERSE 2:
Shouldn't be afraid to stick my hand out
When others are hiding it by their sides
Not backing up to behinds
And watch them pulls away

Watching others living fiercely
Don't care when who pick their nose
They getting something out when I'd got nothing
So I just stand and watch the show

Inspired by Lenka's The Show.

Hero Superchick

No one talks to her, she feels so alone,
She’s in too much pain to survive on her own,
The hurt she can’t handle overflows to a knife,
She writes on her arm, wants to give up her life,
Each day she goes on is a day that she is brave,
Fighting the lie that giving up is the way,
Each moment of courage her own life she saves,
When she throws the pills out, a hero is made...

I read and reread the lyrics and sing it till I know it by heart. Sensitive soul. I am.

Everything new

Due to social obligations, I have created a new facebook account. My old account had been neglected for more than a year. I am that antisocial. So now I have a new facebook account, a new e-mail address and a new blog.

Like beginning life all anew.